oh.. my dad is giving me such a hard time. He is recovering very well.. but hates it at the hospital. During their evaluations, they have been asking him a gazillion questions.. that he finds stupid.. and have been making him do all kinds of movements and tests. He is not very happy.. feels they are treating him as if he is stupid or crazy.
Even though I go to see him everyday and sometimes twice a day, he dumps his frustrations on me. Now, it's all my fault I brought him into the hospital.. because he nows says he would have recovered on his own.. and I'm all to blame.
His girlfriend is not better. She just is so negative and has been putting a guilt trip on me because I don't want my dad living with me. My dad, on the other hand does not want to go into an assisted-living community. If you knew my history and everything that ever happened to me because of my dad, you would understand that I can't do it.
I've been trying hard to have a brave face and be strong. My brothers are far away and just figure I can take care of it all.
Besides that, I've gone and alienated someone I care alot for..
I feel so alone.. with no support anywhere.
Today.. I feel I can't do anything right. :(
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I know I can't be the support you need, but maybe I can give a little reminder that you're not alone.
And sometimes we mess up with people we care about, and sometimes it's worth it to find them again.
((hugs))
Thanks Heather,
I don't know, the let-down last week at the meeting, my embarrassment, my dad in the hospital and his attitude towards me because of it.. has got me feeling very vulnerable.
Actually, I hope I can make amends. This person has been very good to me and for me and I .. all wrapped up in my little feelings.. and especially needy acted like a real jerk and have not been very appreciative.
no, Los.. I'm not talking about my dad.. and this person is far from being an ass, if there is an ass here, it's me.
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