First Blog Posting

Well, here goes.. first time for everything.
I've been reading a few blogs from members of W1K and thought .. "Hey, I wouldn't mind having a place to spill my guts once in a while... too lazy to do it in a real journal.. actually writing with a pen.. so much easier to type. I guess Monday was what really turned the corner for me wanting a blog. My dad was here... and as usual, he is always trying to stir up trouble. Why? .. it is like he can only go so long without making me feel like I'm a nothing.

He started in with how ungrateful his children are... etc. all because the week earlier .. when Sylvain and my brother went fishing with him.. my brother accidently threw out his bag that he had made himself a sandwich in.. and in that same back he had a pair of sunglasses and a toothbrush.. Hey.. we're are not talking millions here.. 8$ sunglasses... and a ratty old toothbrush... give me a break! If you knew my dad, and you knew me and my brothers and hubby.. you would know that we are not ungrateful ... he is even lucky any of us even go to see him at all... someday, I'll get into that.. but the only thing I can say is that I was lucky to have the mother I had.. (as short a time as she was around) because we would all be in the loony bin!

Anyways... he just kept getting meaner and more agitated...with a hard ball in my throat and tears welling up in my eyes.. I told him.. Dad, It's time you go home.. he just kept on ranting. Dad, please go home.. He banged the table and said, NO.. you are going to listen to me... So.. I just said ok.. stay there.. and left.. went out in the backyard.. tears flowing down my face.. not knowing where to turn.. I was too embarrassed to go into the street... too shy go to the neighbors.. I just wanted to scream out at the world...TELL HIM TO LEAVE ME ALONE! I went out behind the garage .. and hugged the wall with my back.. until I heard his car leave.
I just didn't know where to go .. had really no one to talk to.. Sylvain left with Simon and were gone to the dump because we took down our hothouse because it was rotten.

So... I came here today.. to open a blog.. that probably no one will ever see.. or know about.. If they do... that's ok too.. because I guess I just don't care... but at least I can release when I need to. Hopefully it will be cathartic.

On a lighter note:
Send a card to Dee last week because she had knee surgery and I thought it would make her feel better.. what do I find in the mailbox this morning? ... the card has come back because I didn't put the right amount of postage on it.. Hey .. when did they change the amount it cost to send a card to the States?... well.. anyways.. Now I have to go to the postoffice and get another 15c stamp because that is what is supposedly missing.

We are on vacations right now.. left town for a few days and took a few pictures.. Sylvain left early this morning to go fishing with Michel. I pretty much have most of the day to myself.. I have a photo session I want to set up this afternoon for the "Bad Habits" H2H and I really should clean up the house.. Don't really feel like it but once I get it done.. I'll be really happy about it. Well , enough for now.