birds do it , bees do it...

even educated fleas do it..

but not quite this way:

LOL

In front of my house this morning.. you figure it out!! LOL

walk in the woods

I really didn't have a great week. Financially, it's been rough, emotionally too... seems all I know to do is screw up.

I thought I'd just make up my mind to be strong and that would be it. Not as easy as I thought.. and I don't really feel that I can reach out to anyone anymore about it. I've become too needy and surely an annoyance.

I just wish I could snap my fingers and everything would be alright. Why is this so hard for me? I'm a smart person. I've comforted many people in my life, why can't I comfort myself? It's not for lack of trying or wanting, that's all I can say.

Yesterday, I took a walk in the woods. It is just 5 minutes by foot to get there.. and I brought my camera. I got a few pics.. nothing I'm really crazy about .. posting a few here but I don't think I'll ever be a nature photographer.. :-P

A few moments from where I live:



Some child put a red wool string on a tree:



Some roots... uncovered by the erosion of the sand:



Someone wrote arbre on this tree, arbre is tree in French:

finally

Today, after 3 months, exactly I finally took off my wedding ring. I don't know why I kept it on all this summer with everthing I was going through.. but it was just so hard to take it off.

I cried.. I cried for what we had, for what we could have had.. and how it was all gone. I cried for the good times, because there were good times. I cried for the young couple we were that believed ( well, I believed) we'd be happy together, forever.

It was a plain gold band. It once had a meaning. It doesn't anymore.

Today

Today is my birthday.

There will be no cake or candles, but that's ok.. I'm having a good day.

Several people have written and said Happy Birthday in the Sugar Shack at Worth1000. To me it feel like a great big Birthday Card and fills me with much joy. Arsi started the thread.. so that's even more fantastic because he hates going in there... he calls it the vomitorium! :-)

I had lunch with a girlfriend of mine.. I hadn't seen her since last year and it was good to touch bases and just hang out a bit.

Two other of my girlfriends called, both sang me Happy Birthday on the phone.

Best gifts of all.. gifts of the heart.