Finally, an update

I don't know if anyone still reads this but this is an update on what's happened in the last few months.

My life really has been up and down a lot in the last few months.

Since November of 2005, my dad was extremely sick and was in the hospital 3 times. It was pretty rough to see my dad like that, and on January 29, 2006.. my dad died.
Although I was kind of expecting it, you are never truly prepared. Since last year he had been in the hospital 6 times. Once for a minor stroke and 5 times with pneumonia and lung problems.

My dad was a tough guy.. and if anyone has ever read back through my blog, not at all an easy man. I can say though, that after Sylvain left... he was there for me. I guess it was easier for him to be my dad at that stage, I needed him and we solidified our relationship. I'm glad too...when he left this earth, we had no unfinished business.. no unresolved anything. He is no longer was in pain ... and I no longer have to worry about him living on his own, as he wanted. He didn't want to go to an old age home, to him that meant he would lose all his freedom. So now, he is truly free.

As many of you know, I filed for divorce and the first stage is done and over with.. the financial stuff is all worked out and final. This was a huge thing for me, because I was afraid of losing my house. As small as it is, it is still Home Sweet Home to me.. the roof over my head and the bed under my back at night.

Now, all that is left is the divorce papers, because I don't want to have to wait another year or so before going back to court. I could have had a legal separation and gone that route, but I'm not the type of person that is going to lay around for a year hoping he will come back.. I've mourned and it's over now and I've turned the page.

I've also someone in my life that is amazing, intelligent and incredibly awesome. It's exciting yet scary, but I'm taking it one day at a time.

I'm also finding myself again.. the person I truly am and I like me.. a lot.